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when i write my blog, mostly are in sad feeling. A few days back, i was sick and need 2 admit to hospital. Just bcoz of this I missed my trip to Langkawi with my loved ones. I felt very sry to her. Hope she will forgive me. 2day, I feel better already. I kept sms her asking her where she is and wat she is doing but it seems that she doesn't reply me back. I wait 4 her for almost 4 hour only she reply me said she is in the cable car. After that, no more msg she send to me. Maybe I disturb her for enjoying her trip. Or maybe she really don't have the time to msg me. I kept find any relevant reason 4 me not 2 feel so sad. But whatever we went, we will came to a limit. I really sad and really hate myself coz if I didn't get ill. I can keep company her and 2day wont happen this kind of situation. But what can I do? Haiz, I know she is angry with me now. What can I do is to wait until she msg me back.You know what, I really love you. What I have done to you I very sorry. But if you done anything wrong to me I will still can smile with you and 4give you. Bcoz "a girl like you is impossible to find. You're really impossible to find!!!!! " truly deeply very love you, Sharon!!! Anyway 2day I'm very sad.....very very sad...Sharon, without you is how I disappear!!! I love you!!

~ 原谅 ~

已经有18个小时14分钟没收到坏蛋的信息了。坏蛋，真的不能原谅我吗？不要气我了好吗？对不起。我真的很希望我最爱的坏蛋能够原谅我。当然，我也希望她能给我一个我能和她重来的机会。坏蛋！衰蛋这一生这一世就只爱你一个女生！原谅我好吗？

~ my heart & soul will always be urs ~

It is very hard for a boy to cry because of a girl but since I meet her, my life change a lot. She is the one who change me a lot from my hair to my toe. I must said she is the only girl that I will love and there is none other girls that can replace her in my heart. Although if the other girl have the same face with her, the same attitude and all of the things that are actually same with her. No doubt I will still love her and not the girl which have all the same characteristic of her. Why? A good question. It is because I fall in love with her when I 1st saw her. She is the only girl who can make me happy, sad, angry and other emotions. Just like one song names 'you light up my life by Westlife' - "And you light up my life, You give me hope, to carry on. You light up my days and fill my nights with song." Sharon Ang Si Ying, you are the one who lighted up my life. It is you who I need. I love you, Sharon. I just wanna to let you know, if someday I had gone for the furthest place which you can't ever go. I wanna you to remember. Me, Lee Siew Keong will only love you, Sharon Ang Si Ying only. You are my only source of energy to survive in this world. Without you is how I disappear. I love you, my "huai dan"!!!

哭~

兆强~兆强~兆强~你真的很没用叻~连一位你爱的女生你也能够弄到她生气你。还对你说“等气消了才SMS你”早上才好回，现在又酱了。笨蛋！兆强你真的很笨叻！连要给你最爱的“坏蛋”快乐，你也办不到。你还想能在她那期待什么？你还想给坏蛋什么幸福？笨蛋就是笨蛋。曾经有位酱好的女朋友你不会珍惜！兆强你真的很笨叻。曾经有位女生那么爱我，虽然她曾经想放弃我和她的恋情。但是因为我的挽留，我又和她在回一起。现在我确放弃了她,我放弃她并不表示我不爱她。我真的很爱“坏蛋”。盼她有一天能再给我一次和她在回一起的机会。cuz you light up my life!

~2008年5月28日~

mmm~好好吃哦~对吗？我爱的坏蛋~其实是那两块蛋糕很难吃啦~对不对？对不起哦~本来还以为你会很开心因为能吃到secret recipe的蛋糕~没关系，虽然是不好吃。但是你吃得甜在心里~对吗？哈哈哈~开玩笑啦~昨天真的很开心~能够陪你去MBO看戏~但是到后来，我却弄到你不开心~真的非常对不起~坏蛋~衰蛋会prove给你看的~还有昨天在secret recipe讲的东西~五年过后~希望你会记得哦~anyway~希望你能天天开心哦~看来你今天一定是睡到很迟的对吗？因为我在等你的信息~我真的好像坏蛋你哦~昨天坏蛋真的好漂亮~其实坏蛋在我心里每天都是那么漂亮的~只是昨天比较特出~所以就更漂亮咯~加上有点性感哦~昨天真的很开心~能陪我爱的坏蛋看衣服~但是到后来~她一件也买不成~坏蛋~你是不是在想我怎样拍到这张照片的叻？我是在你不注意之下再加上你小弟的帮忙~再再加上我酱pro的拍照技术~这张照片就出炉了咯~别生气啊~想逗你开心回嘛~坏蛋~我爱你！(^_^)

~ 悲＋哀 ~

今天，她终于对我说，她不想要再有那种女朋友的感觉。她说我和她只是普通朋友。说真的，我真的办不到！因为我真的很爱她。没办法把她当成普通朋友。我很想跟她在回一起。真的很希望我最爱的她能看到我的用心，能够看到我所为她做的一切。我真的变了！坏蛋！衰蛋永远永远爱你一个！真的很想哭。。。。如果不是因为去年！我和她现在也不会变成这样！但是如果不是那件事，我现在也不会很在乎她！我现在有可能还是以前的兆强。。。。。希望她能再次地爱上我。。。。。

~ damn bad mood ~

She angry me until now. Because she said yesterday I made her angry. Yesterday when I came back from school I asked her does she angry me? But she didnt reply me. She just sent me a message "sorry for today because scream to you and ask you to go back". Then I just thought she didnt angry me. It seems that I had misunderstood her meaning. The truth things is she still angry me. Just now I only know about it. Okay! That's fine! I wont ask her any reason anymore for anythings she did. Myself also will answer what she ask and won't answer any extra things which didn't have any relevant about his question! Yesterday I just very worried about her because she keep asking me to go back while I ask her reason she didn't want to tell me. Hope someday she can realise that I didn't mean to make her angry. Just worry about her! Hope she can knew how much she mean to me until I can sacrafice for her! Sharon, I LOVE YOU!

~ 重要的一天 ~

今天，是我和我最爱的她(思颖)第一次约会的纪念日。我还记得很清楚，那一天她很开心。因为她能和她的偶像握手。多亏我，哈哈哈。我真的很开心。已经有两年了。我真的很希望她能给我多一次机会。我真的很爱她。Sharon, I'm very sorry for what I had done to you for the last year. But now, I really changed a lot. I hope someday you will give me a chance. I really want to be with you my whole life. I LOVE YOU！！！

~ sad ~

2day is my last day 4 going 2 her class 2 talk with her in the morning and recess time. I'm very sorry because I had caused her many problem. Like yesterday her mum scolded her cause she saw both of us standing outside the classroom chat together. Now, I just hope she will know what I had promised her, I will do it! Cause I had changed a lot just that she can't see it. I will wait 4 her 10 years, 20 years and so on. Until I can be with her together back. I hope someday she will know what I had done is just especially 4 her. I will stay beside her whatever it take. I just wanna 2 cry. I'm very sad cause from 2morro I can't everyday talk 2 her like what I had done in the past. Just now I had received her msg. She told me dont be unhappy. One month I can only meet her twice to talk with her. N I still very sad cause she said we r friend. I wanna cry now.............

~ mood < -ve infinity ~

i'm very sad 2day cuz she angry me. I just want 2 be honest with her. I promised her to tell her everything that got link with me. 2day she got st. john marching. She marched until the recess time over. I comfirm got a little bit not so comfortable with her marching cuz delay her recess time and also wasted my time which i need that time to talk with her. After school, I thought I have the time 2 talk with her and settle the problem but it make things worse. She still in the bad mood after she came out from the school office. She told me she was in a bad mood. I dont know what had hapeened in the school office. But I'm sure she had a bad mood is bcoz of me. Now I dunno need to do what in order to make her happy. I just can apologise to her and hope the problem can be rectify as soon as possible. Haiz, from morning until now my headache still even get well. I really did mean to make her angry. I just want to let her noe what I'm feeling about. I really love her!!!!

~ " - " mood ~

2day, she not happy bcoz she thought i change her friendster profile 2 private. But the real things is, i didnt ever, never change her profile setting. Maybe bcoz the friendster got update the web, then "ter"change. I dont noe. But, if I really "ter"press it, sorry. I didnt mean it. Now, bcoz of the "stupid" friendster. She angry me n not happy with me. "Padahalnya", I am also the victim. I didnt noe what is going on. Until she told me, then I really noe. After that, I help her 2 change back. I thought I can rectify this situation, but it seems that I had wrong. She still not happy bcoz of this "stupid" friendster. Nevermind, I cant say anything to her cuz I lie her be4. So, she rather choose to believe her friend but not me. I will check how is this "private profile" happened want. I am not angry bout her. Just I had change a lot, but she still dint believe my word. Truth will always be my side. I will prove to her that I had changed a lot not bcoz of her only but also for my ownself.

~ 她哭了 ~

今天，我最爱的她哭了。原因，因为她班有个"马来猪"一直换位。然后现在她的老师要换完全部人的位子。我最爱的她好为难，因为她的朋友一位要坐风扇底下，两位要坐中间。咳，我不是要怪她的朋友而是我希望她们能想一想思颖的难处。她已经很累了，别再让她难做人了好吗？我当时看到我最爱的她哭，我真的很想哭。但是，我确忍住。因为我如果哭了谁来安慰我最爱的她？所以我就想尽办法逗她开心。果然，她真的笑了。当然，看到她开心，我也开心。我知道我已不是她的男朋友。但是我确那么地关心她。为什么呢？因为我爱她。

~ 她不舒服 ~

前天，在学校的比赛。我最爱的她不舒服。我看到她那样，我真的好担心她。还好之后她好了。这样我也放心了。

~ 开心 ＋ 心情沉重 ~

今天很开心，因为我最爱的她在 st.john training的时候拿我来做示范。当时，她的手好冰哦。应该是很紧张吧。咳，还有她没带水瓶来st.john training。好才今天我有带多另外一瓶水来。所以就给她喝咯。但是只喝一两口。没关系。最重要是有喝。好了。要到不开心的事了。我最爱的她说，她给过我整颗心，我却丢弃了。现在我又向她要回那颗心。她呆了，因为她不知被我丢到哪儿了。她找不到也找不回，也许回忆已经把它偷偷给藏起来了，不让我和她找到。回忆和现实就像是敌人。你越想在现实找到它。回忆就越不让那颗心出来。但是，我觉得无论如何回忆和现实都会有和好的一天。就像我们和朋友一样。有时会吵吵闹闹。就像我和运豪，启良这样。虽然有时会因为意见不合而吵架。但是朋友始终是朋友。无论有多不爽对方。到后来你们也会看到我们在一起聊天，开玩笑。我本人相信这世上是有奇迹的。我很希望奇迹能出现在我和我最爱的她的关系里。让我和她能够在回一起。没有她，我的人生就等于零。活在这世上也没有意思。我真的很爱洪思颖这位女孩。

~ 好开心哦 ~

今天下课我和我最爱的她一起在食堂吃东西。就只有我和她。我希望以后的每一天都能像现在这样。我永远爱你一个，思颖。

~ 3月22日 ~

那天我真的很开心，因为我陪我最爱的她去MBO看电影。那天我才知道原来她怕被吓的。我真的不是一个很好的男生。跟她在一起已经有一年八个月了，我确不知道原来她很怕被吓倒的。我真的不配和她在一起。但是现在的我真的变了。我真的很在乎她。我真的不想看到她伤心。我答应她我不会弄她不开心就不会！我真的很希望我最爱的她能和我在回一起。我会很爱她，不会再像以前那样追到她了就开始忽略她。现在的我真的变很多了。以前的兆强以经死了。

~ SJAM比赛 ~

真的好开心哦！我最爱的她在theory拿第三名。还有overall她的组拿冠军。看到她开心，我也很开心。思颖，你要加油哦。我知道我最爱的她会代表州出去比赛，虽然我不是很想她去。但是，这是她选的路。我没有资格说不行。就算现在她还是我的女朋友，我也会放她走，让她去参加比赛。毕竟这是她想走的路。我唯一能做的就是永远support她！为她加油！永远永远地爱她。思颖，我真的很希望跟你在回一起这一天的来临。我爱你！！！

~ 好想问我自己，“你快乐吗？” ~

说真的，看见我最爱的她快乐，我也真的很快乐。但是，这并不是我要的那种快乐。我要的快乐是那种有感觉到幸福的快乐。我对她的爱就从来没动摇过。我真的很爱她。真的希望她能给我个机会。真的很希望我最爱的她能爱我多一次。思颖，我永远爱你一个!!!

~ 快乐渐渐离我而去 ~

我真的很爱她。看不见她的笑，我也会不开心。为什么会这样的呢？已经知道是不可能的，为何还要去追呢？原因就只有一个，我很爱她！！现在我能做的，就是等待她给我一次机会的来临。该做的我都做了。该哭的我都哭了。该笑的我都笑了。现在唯一能做的就是等。机会就由我最爱的她作主。能不能和她在回一起，就是她的决定。思颖，我永远永远永远爱你！！！

~ 女+也生气了 ~

我最爱的她已经生气我两天了。我真的不是有心要弄她生气的。我恨死“那个那天抢我钱包的女生”。就是因为“她”，我最爱的她才生我的气的。思颖，不要生我的气了好吗？我真的不想看到你不开心。原谅我好吗？我真的不是有心的。相信我。

~ 闷闷的＋伤心 ~

咳，我真的不是故意要弄我最爱的她生气。我真的知错了。只希望我最爱的她能够原谅我。

~ boring ~

今天当我要去补习的时候，我看到我最爱的她和她妹走路回家。我那时多开心当我见到她。但是她确没望我一眼。我没生气她，只是有点伤心吧了。但是能见到她我已经很满足了。今天8.39 p.m. 我打给我最爱的她。但是她妈说她睡着了。没关系啦。只是有点伤心。晚安。宝贝老婆，我爱你。muack...好久没对我最爱的她这样说了。我看以后也没这个机会了。思颖，给我一次和你在回一起的机会，好吗？我永远爱你一个！！

~ 爱一个人是不用任何理由的 ~

"我爱你"这三个字，对以前的我来说，是很难说出口的。但是当我遇见了她，我就从一个害羞的男生变成一个很主动的男生。也许这是爱的力量吧。从一个不爱打扮的我，现在已变成她所谓的"爱美公"。是她令我改变最多的女生。我真的很爱她，也希望能和她在回一起。思颖，我爱你！！

~ blog...blog...blog... ~

今天我爱的她很开心哦。当然，我看到她开心，我也开心。(^.^)我爱的她每天都那么漂亮。她的笑容真的很甜美。真的很爱她。当然，我希望我最爱的她能给我一次机会。我真的很想跟她在一起。只要是关于她的东西，我也想要知道。当她不开心，伤心，失落，我都希望在她身边陪她渡过。如果上天给我一千个愿望，我只换我最爱的她一直陪在我身旁。爱情是盲目的。在爱情里，根本就没谁对谁错。思颖，我永远爱你一个！！

~ 闷闷的 ~

今天的她好像有点不开心，应该是因为我的关系吧。今天作了个“诗歌”送给她，我爱的她蛮喜欢叻。我真的好开心。我爱的她今天好像没喝很多水。好紧张她哦。今天真的很想她。昨晚梦见了我最爱的她。我在想是不是她也梦见了我？真的很希望我最爱的她能够天天开心。还有，secret recipe我一定会带我最爱的她去吃。因为她超爱吃的。优其是她最喜欢的 black forest 蛋糕。说真的，我最近爱吃蛋糕了。

~ 别再生气了，好吗？ ~

今天我爱的她生气了。早上还有说有笑的，可是中午两点多左右却生气了。我知道，她生气是因为我而起的。所以就只好怪我自己没用！笨蛋！傻瓜！我其实真的很爱她。我当然希望她会明白我当初为何会作出这样连我自己也不想要的决定。原因已告诉她了，就看她怎样想。机会就在她手中。我能不能和她在回一起就看这个机会了。有人说：“爱一个人不一定要拥有她，只要她能找到她的幸福就可以了。”但是，我却不赞成。如果你真的爱她，就应该去追她，爱她，拥有她！不要以后留下遗憾！我真的很想跟我最爱的她在回一起。因为没有她，我就像是一条没有水而活着的鱼。鱼需要水而活着。既然已离开了水，自然的，鱼也会就这样死去！真的好希望我爱的她能给我多一次机会！！

~ 今天的我情绪好低落 ~

我真的和你没机会了吗？真的不能在回一起吗？我永远爱的你，你听见我的心声吗？我的心告诉我，你就是我这一生最爱的女人，我的另一半。我真的不想就这样失去我最爱的你。希望你能给我一个我和你从来的机会！！思颖，我这一生绝对不会再爱上另外一个女生除了你，洪思颖！！！


～我永远爱你！！～

~ You are my everything ~

Eventually, you'll understand I love you. Miracles turn common place in time. I'll simply be, and then my feelings for you, like saplings planted in your yard, will find many years enough to shade you from the wind. I love you ! My love to you is more than a thousand light years. Trust me. I love you more than I love my own !!!

~ When you're gone ~

After you're gone, how will I go to study? Who will I phone to talk through the silent night after you're gone?
You're part of my life, a piece of my tapestry. On what rock will my castle rest after you're gone?
Time will turn but without hands, how will I eat without my day on your dish after you're gone?
You're the only place I can put myself. No hopes or dreams can fill my tumbling days after you're gone!!!

~ Wedding is just you and me ~

A wedding is the entrance to a marriage:One drives through, and suddenly one's there!Stepping from a fairy tale carriageInto quite ordinary air.Life is now a dance, though beautiful,Requiring intense coordination;Each self becomes, in ways inscrutable,More fully what it is in combination.And we who love you wait, of course, outsideAs you become through love that mystery:One flesh made whole of separate groom and bride;Two selves, one life; two notes, one harmony.When you are one, we then may cherish two:Loving not just one, but both of you.

~ Girlfriend ~

A girlfriend's neither gotten nor forgotten.She's never just a friend who is a girl.She doesn't wear a nameplate or a flower.You never can be certain that she's there.
You're going to have to jump right off a buildingAnd probably break your ego and your neck.Nine times out of ten you'll wish you'd vanished,But one time out of ten--why, there she'll be!
A girlfriend isn't something you acquire.A girlfriend is a person, not a thing.And if you leap and land next to the right one,She'll burn her image right into your heart.

~ 真的没有机会了吗？ ~

我真的不想和你有这样的结局 。 难道我和你真的就不能在一起回吗？ 毕竟 ，我曾和你相爱过。现在的我真的跟以前不同了。相信我。 我真的很爱你！以前是，现在也一样是！！给我一个和你重来的机会好吗？我真的会好好珍惜你，不会再让你的心受到任何伤害！！我爱你！！永远爱你！！如果有下一世，我也希望能跟你在一起，爱你！！！